Osho's Neo Sanyas is not a renunciation of this so called world. I was prejudiced earlier that I will have to quit eating non-vegetarian food, will have to drop household, etc. But instead I learnt that this is an invitation from existence to know more about myself, to imbibe the idea of self acceptance and acceptance of others. Of course my conditioned mind brings resistance. But slowly I am becoming aware of it.
Right after initiating into sannyas many things happened to me so quickly that it left me in awe. I got the proposal for work meditation to stay at Osho Nisarga by Ma Neelam. However, I was completely unaware of work as mediation but I accepted it as an omen in my life. And whew! I got the golden opportunity to live there for three months, meditating, laughing, dancing and staying with so many nice co-travelers. It helped me to uplift and enrich my life. Of course Osho’s discourses helped me to bring more clarity.
Sannyas has created a situation in me to see my inner dimensions of life which was completely unknown to me. It has also subsided fear in me for choosing the unknown territory. I remember my friend Priya talking about her favorite sentence of Osho: whenever you have a choice between the known and unknown, choose the unknown, because it brings more aliveness, more awareness in you…and I still abide by these words. They have helped me tremendously.
Most of the times when I forget my meditation sittings it is my sannyas initiation that reminds me about my commitment to myself. Before sannyas I was arrogant, self centered and often felt drained as I had life negative attitudes. But now as I connect with other sannyasins in the same path like me, I feel more joyful inside. It has opened a new vista to make myself more balanced and loving.
I have deep gratitude to Osho and all existential forces which is unknowingly and invisibly helping me to grow.
